I should be lounging around and flipping through the channel to channel at this hour but instead I decided to tuck myself away in the corner of my bedroom, hunches over my wordpad and looking at him locked his eye on the laptop screen. I should be glad that he never is a Facebook person who chat randomly with girls, or a gaming person who might still slaughter his enemy in cyber cafe with a bunch of game kaki. he might be reading some forum, or maybe just that forum that he read on everyday to checkout if his droid finally achieving a cheaper price.
When i was young, my mum told me "when you have bf next time, remember to bring him back and let me take a look because parents always know how to discern the good guy and bad guy". But when i grow older, I can somehow interpret her bad as handsome guy and good as those guys you throw them into a cage of women also nobody would grab them. But speaking of which, my mum did had good guesses on a few but it is either her pick doesn’t fulfill my appetite or she insisted the person is bad but I refused to listen. But gladly, time tells the truth and unravel all the mysteries.^^
I never believe in true love must wait as they sound bullshit and clichéd to me, when you was so in love with someone and he shows interest on you too, all you want to do is ambush him and seize him alive and not just standing there and wait. So because of my innate impulsiveness, they always end up to be the terrible twister romance, because i was afraid that they don’t like me if I was pretentious to wait. Or somebody might already grab them off or even maybe they will divert their attention to others then i would stay forlorn forever.
So i jumped into relationships real quick whenever there is spark and so, I met some jerks, some sharks, some good guy but just not for me, and I ended up being so lost. Yeah, I was once so lost that i dont know what i really want, and when you didn’t know what you really want, you will end up feeling gloomy and PMS everyday and live in fucked up life.
So when I met him, i decided to wait this time. Not that i was particularly into him, and not because my mum said he is a good guy from their first meet-up but she said he is short and chubby ( and she denied that now). He is one of the very ordinary guy in my list, and he is very far from rich but when I understand him more as person, I thank God for sending him to me.
I am a person who is really hard to please, I am demanding and I like to be pampered because I know i will give him my 120% so he must at least try his best too. And i am very particular in knowing if that person really understands me wholly or just partially. I want it wholly! i don’t want him to keep guessing and i keep waiting. Basically, I just not into the mind game but not to reveal everything so he can easily understand me. But that person has to try if he is really into you right.
And somehow he seemed to have read my mind, not a single time but he always hit them right timely. He always know when to give a hug and when to ask "how are you" in a honestly genuine tone, like he knew he needed to ask because something just wasn’t right. He speaks what i think, and do before i even ask him to. He is not wealthy but he never been stingy to me but himself. And i don’t think my mind belongs to me anymore but he shared it with me. So the plausible reason is only either he is a genius or he truly love me. And I choose the latter.
He might not be the best for others as he doesn’t have a face like brad pitt, or amassing huge sum of moolah but he is indeed the best for me. And truthfully, he will always be.