Thursday, March 24, 2011

snowing in chicago


it started to snow at 6pm. The fluffy white snow swaying down gracefully from heaven. I was cold but all excited to catch the snow and let it melted in palm.


《无题》

你再也不必孤单

那天看到一对耳环很喜欢,就买了下来.

可是当时就想到我带着围巾会不会拿上拿下就掉了?最后还是带着走了大半天。是夜,回到车上正想和kh说我真得很喜欢这对耳环,边赞着边摸却发现她真得掉了一边!!!

我很不愤也很不甘的对他说,我要把另外一边给偷回来,谁叫他们的design这么差!那几天都一直提着不见了的耳环,一只提着我要把他偷回来。心里真的百般不是滋味。

就昨天回到同样的一间店又看到了这对耳环。还是最后的一对。

就这样,我买了两次相同的耳环,他问我为什么不买对新的?

说不出来,我就是这么执著。

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The real shopping in chicago

Finally! i am alive kicking again!

I am so glad that i responded to a friend's chat who still wide awake at 1am in Malaysia, i grumbled to him that there was nothing nice to shop here. Everything is expensive and blah blah..so he asked if i went to this outlet called Gurnee mills. Hell no! i havent! so it shed me some light of hope!

By night, we drove for around 1 hour+ to Gurnee mills, and kh said this was like going to taiping for shopping. lol.

I have bought some of the souvenirs for the girls back in Malaysia. Check it out girls! but too bad you have no chance to choose but to accept as they are specially chosen to represent you
character or what you want. So how can you choose not to be yourself?^^

The windy city

I feel safe when I stayed indoor. It was a totally 2 different zone when you stepped out from where you are. The chilly wind, I mean really really chilly strong wind. Seriously, I am daunted by the coldness i am baring now and totally hate the weather here, it is so freaking cold that you rarely have mood to walk outside enjoying the sun or whatsoever la. The sun is just helplessly shine here or may as well it just coyed behind the cloud. Since it is so powerless.

I wasted my last sunday hibernated in my hotel room. We went to chicago outlet for a walk in the morning but it was too cold and windy so i told him i ran out of my battery so we went back to hotel to rest before going out to woodfield mall. But to my surprise, I was fainted from 1++pm to 10++pm. Vaguely, i could hear him asking me to have dinner but i couldnt get myself up. So he settled the lunch box we brought back in the afternoon and finally when i woke up it was 1030pm. But my staying conscious period didnt last long enuf as I continued my sleep at 12am until the next day 8am.

I guess the weather just induced me with drowsiness.

Anyway, some recap on the only day when i was still alive.

The chicago is a really big city with extremely congested traffic, but not entirely paralyzed. This is second biggest concrete jungle city in US, following after the new york city.




Since now is end of the winter enter spring, so the trees are all dry and bald. But they still look nice though:) if only it is not that cold, i dont mind to snap more photo of it.


My friend who had been here before recommended me some of the places like michigan street, millenium park, navy pier and some of the name that i couldnt remember.

So we started with the michigan street with lots of tall building flanking along the laneway. The michigan street is too long that we couldnt finish walking to the end, so we just picked the place where we wanted to go. There were actually quite alot of shop that looks pretty nice but i was shivering to core and the bleak cold wind hurt my eyes that i have to squint them all the time.

To be honest, you really dont have to spend your time picking some nice clothes to wear because you wouldnt have chance to even flaunt them in front of the camera, but you do need a nice trench coat. And that was the mistake I made. I brought along some clothes but they are not warm enuf so end up i have to wear my coat that bought sometimes ago but inadequate to keep me warm and plus one oversized male cutting wind breaker sponsored by kh. Sigh!

if you cant imagine then this is how bulky and klutzy i looked like! i dress as if I were going to climb kk right??

But good thing is, i got to buy a new one here to transform myself. From forever 21 some more for only 30USD. ^^ my friend said the red is just so "chio" dont you think so?:P

we steered our steps to navy pier that is quite a distance away from michigan road to save some parking fee.


Navy pier is a nice place to hang out with family if only now is summer or spring. The view was just so serene that you can have a popcorn and drink and just sit there at the seaside leaving the time goes by.

time was running out by the time we left navy pier, hopefully we could cover the millenium park before i go back.*cross finger*

Saturday, March 19, 2011

First night in Chicago is nothing but jetlag

It is 348am in Chicago. After some attempt tossed and turned on the bed, failed, so I literally threw myself out from bed.

Chicago has been really windy and chilly at night. I was standing outside the airport waiting for him to pick me up, realizing I don’t even know what car number or even the color he was driving so I could spot him easily. The bleak wind eats into my skin, penetrate through every layer beneath, my face felt anesthetized, as well as every fresh exposed, but well enough to shove away the dizziness I felt after long flight. He warned me before I came, asking me to make myself warm as it would be cold here. But I just wanted to travel light and comfortable. So I thought I could abide that little cold time waiting.

But he miscalculated the time so I had to wait longer than I thought, again, unsure if I was on right pick up zone and if he was able to find me. The worse I figured was it is either I became the ice statue under this weather or I took a cab which are all the limo here to the hotel he reside. Limo sounds enticing. :)

Thank God, he found me after 15 minutes before I executed my backup plan.

I was thinking. Days ago that I am lucky, I have a promising job, I have great parents, I have great bf, great friends who can help you whenever you need them, great people around me like my boss, friends at work( though some are really mean), properties at this age, and afford to take respite to the places I was only able to look at on the tv screen. Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to flaunt but I just need to say that I felt blessed and I believe so many of us was not realizing how lucky they were having people who really care about them sometimes, I did that too. I was completely a blind idiot sometimes that I crave for more and take people who loved me for granted, not realizing there are lots of people who live less than me, who might have struggling to survive like the Earthquake victim in Sentai, who probably just wishing they could be poor but their loved one survived, who probably wish they could have treated their loved one better when they were around. Human mind is sick.

And my mind used to be sick too.

I remembered my friend told me something years ago” you have a lot of suitor, and that is why you couldn’t choose”. It is better off leaving with no choice than having too many choices that baffled you sometimes. I made the wrong choice before, and I was worried it was wrong even when I made one. And sometimes I thought I could have a better one that came my way. Yes, that happened even when I was with him. I wasn’t daring to overtly confess it now if I never told him the truth before. But he had been a great man who embraces every bits of me without feeling sorry for me or living in self-pity.

Life is great, because you complete me! :X

Anyway, not forgetting i found the mr.right for my parched lips too. It is the bath and body works's lip balm that works as the breath fresher too!


Monday, March 14, 2011

放空

我常以为如果我一个人也可以很好,可以处理所有的事情,不需依赖人, 没有要求,自由自在。一个人或许真的很好。

我真的这么认为。人都是爱面子的吗?喜欢把自己说的好像很厉害。
说穿了心里就是想自己变得坚强些。

你离开的第一天,我忙着打扫我们的房子,发觉好像比平常多了很多的工作,比如说倒垃圾。家里的垃圾都是要自己驾车到附近的大垃圾箱倒, 还有晒衣,我总是嫌着太阳太猛 所以都是你负责晒衣,收衣甚至折衣。我喜欢买衣但是其余根衣服有关的我都嫌麻烦。
原来不管我觉得自己多独立都好,我还是真得很依赖你。我平常都说你很静,凸显出我很吵,现在却觉得原来你时不由来的一句两句带动了我的吵。我平常都嫌你唱歌很难听,现在却渴望可以听到五音不全的调调,我平常都说我做了多少多少的家务,现在才发现你做的或许不起眼,可是都是我忽略的小细节或是一些我选择性不做的工作。

锁好时间, 好不容易等到你的早晨大家一起网上上挡时, 却觉得彼此好像陌生了。和你感到陌生是一种很奇怪的感觉,或许是我不习惯和你msn, 觉得好像和别人谈天,却不知道要谈些什么。你在银幕上给我一个笑脸,我试着把它想象成你的笑脸,却怎样也坪凑不起来。真的很奇怪。

认识你这么久,原来我已忘了当初和你比较熟络时也是靠着这些管道的,不然我们应该还是止于看球的朋友吧.

如果这个距离可以让我想起忘了的时间,忘了要去珍惜,忘了被忽略了的失落,也许这会是一个好机会让我的感情放空,回到最起点, 然后再出发.



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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

lesson

Sometimes it just make you ponder, is this something you like to do?

When i was in primary, I just wanted to go into form 1 and the only qualification for me to get into Form 1 that year was getting straight A, so the next question was which secondary school?
but this was easy:)

and when I were in Form 3, I started to ponder again, Science or Art? but parents decided for me. So science it was. But I wanted a good class so badly, and gleefully I didnt fail my pride.

and when you were in Form 5, where should you go? Form 6 or university, that year we were left with choice to enter university directly but i love biology so fondly. And there i was opened a choice in university(technically it was just partially a university that time, it was just an engineering branch under UTM). So there i was given the advice that you might not get what you want if you stay on in Form 6.

So i left. And that was one of the big mistake i made. I should have stayed on in Form 6, but i wasnt realize i dont like engineering, not entirely hate it but just not too fond of it. It wasnt hard for me to tell what i really like but there is nothing i could do.

I love mas communication when i was away from school, leaving behind my favorite biology class.

and after I graduated, my friend encourage me to try sending resume to XX FM radio station. That day, I was holding 2 resumes in my hand. One i submitted to Intel when i saw there was a career fair, and the other one, i stood still at the main entrance of XXFM. At last, I passed my resume to the counter.

But when i reached home, i told my parents I wanted to be a DJ. Parents got very frustrated and disappointed with my confession and of cz, i got the lecturing i expected.

So i was headed north. And my journey as an engineering person started. Though I do think I will shine so brightly if I was given a choice to do what I want.

I am sorry. I still think so.

This journey shouldnt be struggling if you are doing something you really love.You were given so many choices in your life but the only decision you have to make is something that makes you really happy because you only live once.

I have learnt a lesson. A lesson that i myself only knew and for Christ sake, it will not happen to me again in the future. If I still have one.

Just holding on to what you think is right, because this is your life and you are responsible to it.


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

A rabbit with pig nose

There is something that i like to holler about today!

All my friends know, at least the close one knew i was on korean movie "he's beautiful" binge 2 months ago, i was so into it that i think i was acting a little bit annoying:p

Anyway, Su lin knew about it and she bought me this from Korea! i tell you, this will be the first and only one 猪兔子 officially in Malaysia now! *drum rolls!!!*

kh knew i am never a toy person before, he always offers to buy me the toy that he likes, so he has an excuse to own them but i didnt even lift up my eyebrow. And even if he wants all the toy that people gave me, he could have them as well. But this one!!! it is MINE!!! if you want to own
it, over my dead body first!

Thanks Su lin:)