Monday, November 28, 2011

relaxing over weekend, love it!

November and December are always my favorite months of a year since we have averagely one public holiday every 2 weeks span. And this weekend is another long holiday where I got to spend my time doing things I really love. Photography, family, culinary, and of coz christmas shopping.

On Saturday, PDI offered the storewide 50% discount offer, me and ladies in my family were really anxious and managed to grab some clothes for cny. This was the second time I joined the PDI big sales but I didnt find too many deal that suits me this time. But it was nice as I get to spend time shopping with the ladies. After Queensbay, we adjoined to strait quay for Popular bookstore sales and had some walk. If shopping brings a great pleasure to us the ladies, then going for bookfair is nevertheless my dad's favorite activity.

and I bought the chasing bulb from the flea market in Strait Quay too since christmas is approaching really soon and we realize our old chasing bulb was burnt when we hung it up on christmas tree.


I bought the Cuisinart kitchenware when I was on my business trip last year and gave to my friend who was on her relocation trip since they have shipment. After waited for a year, I finally get my kitchenware back from US. So kh and I decided to give our first trial on Korean fried Chicken. The outcome is surprisingly delectable and the process of making is super easy too. :)

It had been quite awhile I didnt get to spend time on things I really love, weekend was always hectic and eventful..but this week the weekend seems to be a tad different than the usual one, I wasnt able to describe what was the differences but I am happy, really. And I think that is all that matters.

Friday, November 25, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving '11

Today is thanksgiving day which is not a legal holiday in Malaysia but for most of the country,this is one of the biggest celebration for a year. Like my counterpart, they probably were sitting round their tables having wine and gulping turkey now. And for my friends who were on business trip to US they probably squeezing themselves in the mall or outlet for the crazy crazy sales! remember my shopping list ya!

anyway,a little history of thanksgiving for those who doesnt know about it,but apparently my knowlegde is too scarce to share too much too. So here is the brief one, thanksgiving day is a celebration for rejoicing their thankful heart to God for the good harvest throughout the whole year, it always fall before the end of the year and exactly a month before the Christmas day. People takes a day off to give themself a good treat after working hard for the whole year and reward themselves for a day of feast and rest with the family.

This is a tradition that we dont get to have in Asia country, we have labour day every year. But our way of celebrating the labor day is different, for asia, given another holiday is like giving ourself another day to shop. But we dont really sit down on the table reminiscing with the rest of family of what we have done for a year, or thank God for another good year without any disaster or thankful for the best health of everyone.

Yesterday, he drove me back from Intel and suddenly he turned to me and said " thank you for being there for me for another day". We dont feel thankful everyday, we took thing for granted. But i can see that he practice his thankful heart better than me.

Thank you for loving the incomplete side of me.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone:)

Turkey, anyone?

Thursday, November 24, 2011

眼中的那粒苹果

昨天放工和一班朋友约好到1st avenue看最近打得很红也获得很多好评的"那些年,我们一起追的女孩". 一直以来,我都很爱台湾制作的单片,像 “海角七号”, 像“孟钾“。都是很好看的单片。台湾一直都善于制作比较贴近生活化的戏, 香港戏就少了一份纯朴还有细腻, 所以看香港戏还是选些警匪片看好, 或许香港的演员不是看起来太好就是太坏,所以极端的戏码比较适合他们。台湾人的脸都是一幅“普通好人脸“, 好啦,我是胡扯的。

说真的,我不相信有谁会看了“那些年”后评论说这是一部烂片。或许对某些人来说这只是一个超平凡的青涩故事,男女主角因为某些事情而不能携手到老,错过了对方, 但不会有人看了会说不喜欢, 因为实在的,这部戏拍得非常美, 论角度,论颜色,论男女主角, 论配角,论故事情节,这部可算是一步超赞的电影。甚至胜于海角七号。很多小小的地方九把刀导演都不会错过的把它填补上去,很细腻,很仔细,也很窝心。

而对很多很多人来说,尤其是过了青春期我们,“沈佳宜“或是“柯景腾“就像是诉说了自己的故事般贴切。就像有人评的,每个男孩心中都有他的“沈佳宜“, 或许他们曾经扮演的或许不是"柯景腾"的角色,或许他们是“阿和",“老曹”,“勃起” 或是“该边”,但他们都有自己的沈佳宜。 柯景腾比较难找但不能说没有。 可是如果你有的话,你会对这部戏更有共鸣。

那天我和两个好友谈到自己的“柯景腾“和"沈佳宜", 有的不是后悔也没有太多的遗憾,毕竟现在首在我们身边的都是珍惜我们也值得被珍惜的人。只是想起了他们,应征了我们的年轻,我们的热血轻狂,也记载了我们的笨拙和无知。

往退后走在回忆的隧道,我想起了很多被遗忘了的感动。为我青春留下不少烙印的“柯景腾“, 拔助我成长的“柯景腾“,相信吗,我每天都希望他现在过的还好。

这部戏的好看其实就在于它的缺陷美是非常贴切与我们生活所发生的一些琐事,因为自己的某些执著和无理而改变命运的写照, 如果结局真的太好,或许就不那么写实了。生活毕竟不都是因为一些遗憾而让你更加回味吗?

其实我真的觉得自己还蛮幸运的,至少我知道自己曾经是某某的"沈佳宜", 也有陪着自己走过青春道路的"柯景腾".

虽然止点于好友,但一份回忆品尝起来还是带着淡淡的惆怅.

在回忆里兜了几圈回来, 我想起了许多事情. 女孩生命中的"柯景腾"还有男孩生命中的“沈佳宜“ 只要一个就够了, 因为毕竟这是一份缺陷, 如果有选折.我还是比较喜欢看到结局在完美下落幕..

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

white hairs


I am feeling extremely uneasy and disturbed with the fact that kh helped me to pull out 10 white hairs today!

I really have to admit that i am biologically getting older now:( and remind myself dont be so easily flattered by what others said that they thought i am 23/24!!! They are such a liar!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Maid of honor

I was sitting in my cube today with a myriad of pensive thoughts scurring through my head, back and forth. Most of the time, it was the same old picture of my friend's smiley face. I am still emersed in the melancholy mood, but not as intense as yesterday. I am still feeling unsettled today, but i was able to shun her image running into my head. the old memory, the bike, the ride on the swing at the park in front of her old house, the midnight virgil that we attended sometimes .

Tonight I dont want to walk down that memory lane anymore.please.

no matter how, I need to pull myself out from this shit that i felt.

so lets talk about something nice. Perhaps a succinct recap of my experience being the maid of honor last friday.

It was my forth time being a maid of honor.and I believe this will be my last time too, until I had myown wedding and literally let go the right of being one. They always say a girl can only have 3 chances to be a maid of honor but I am not superstitious.

my friend had her wedding at Hard Rock hotel and she was in hyperventilation state for the whole week prior to her wedding. It was more like racing with time than enjoying the whole process, maybe that is how every bride feels, all keyed up and tensed the whole time until the wedding is over. Anyway, as her maid of honor, I was in a bundle of nerves also! Sofia is a perfectionist and I wouldnt want to let her down if something runs off the rails. So to make sure I didnt screw her perfect plan, me and fen went to HR at 330pm, met with her wedding planner, settled our makeup and went to the hall made sure all the CD format she prepared was supported by the hotel cd player. And apparently things didnt work so well in the beginning but luckily it was all dandy after the hassles.

Despite the jittery throughout her wedding, i was actually feeling a great sense of achievement and honor to be somebody's maid of honor. It must be some kind of trust for you that they wanted you to be the one who could walk with them on their big days, I hope my bride's maid and maid of honor feel this too on my big days:P and this will be my little prayer tonight.

I googled the maid of honor's checklist the day before and the google even showed me "Bridesmaid's 101", i wonder if they have something like " Bridesmaid's guide for dummy" or anything that sounds more dummy. I didnt go through the whole list because i believe the
checklist with 100++ items are actually prep you to become a professional bridesmaid or super
bridesmaid==.

for me, being a bridesmaid is about....

1. Being photogenic. EHEM! Taking picture in the hotel with great view, especially HR hotel that you dont normally come and stay a night for vacation. And dont forget to use the bathroom too!!!


2. Being observant! Spot anything that is nice and special, and of coz take a picture with them again.wtf.

3. Participating. Join in any process! see...I was "supervising" the baloon maker...verrrryyy responsible!==


4. Being supportive! Maid of honor is the bride's best supporter and you have to follow whereever she goes! For example, the bride's busy fixing her laptop and the bridesmaid has to give her full support!!

Aiya, I really made a good maid of honor!!!Good night!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

一路好走吧。。


今天收到了家乡销来的噩耗,和乳癌搏斗了整整一年多的你还是走了。

不能说我完全震惊,因为不知怎么的,从上个礼拜突然收到你的来电显示在手机上,到昨天,我的脑袋都是不时地出现最后看到你时的样子。

心很不安,有些怀疑,七上八下的感觉。我真的有怀疑过你是不是知道自己时间不多了而想对我说些什么。
而我在上个礼拜看到你的来电显示过后只是问问是否发生了什么事,而不是复call去。我想我真的不敢。我像我很怕听到坏消息吧。
就是因为自己的胆怯,就是因为知道自己有东西做不好所以我才整个礼拜里都是忐忑不安,但又怪自己想太多,你不会有事的。

昨天冲着凉时还计划着再过两个月的新年可以从西马买些补品回去送给你,也顺便看看你是否好多了。

但, 现在再也没有机会了。

想不到今天 却是你最后一个消息。我很后悔。真的。我可以做得更好的, 你会怪阿加吗?

我好想拨点话给你, 复回你那天的来电。听听你的声音。看看你是否想对我说些什么,有寂寞吗?不要觉得孤单啊。

记得初中一时,因为插班生的关系, 我知道自己应该要主动交朋友。
正好你坐在我前面,高高瘦瘦。说话总是轻轻柔柔的。所以我想这个女孩应该不难交朋友吧。
下课时,刚好你和我都留在教室里,我于是就拍了拍你的椅子,你转过头来,我楞了一下,还是鼓起勇气伸直了手出来,大声地说(你后来告诉我我的声音真的很大)“我叫++, 你叫什么名字?“

“我叫mei mei" . 你笑了笑说。很斯文。很小声。

算了算我们认识了十六年了, 虽然只有两年的同窗岁月(过后我又转校了)。但那两年里,我都时不时往你家里跑。
我很爱玩,你很宅。我很外向,你很内向。
但你都会把喜欢哪个男同学告诉我,虽然是结结巴巴的花了好几十分钟才说出名字。

我们不算是属于同一个圈子的朋友,但我们两个都很好。你的笑点很高,我随随便便说什么, 你都很捧场的笑。

mei, 这么多朋友里,你是我见过最温柔,最温驯,也是最羞涩的。

虽然过后彼此有了自己的生活,新朋友。久久的一个来电,彼此还是很用心的去谈。

自从收到你的信说你中了乳癌,我却退缩了。提起勇气打电话给你时,你却笑笑说你没事。只能面对,如果这是神的旨意。

今年年头特地去了古晋一趟探望你,气色不是很好。但可以看得出你的喜悦。你说我没变,自己却变了很多。。

我问你好吗,你说只能这样,不算好。。看到别人吃些好吃的东西,你很馋, 却要忍住。头发掉了很多,医生也说你的癌细胞散播的很快。。

我不懂该说什么,只能傻傻的重复问你,你还好吗?你笑了笑说。只是孩子还小,不想有事,。现在只能祈祷

儿子Cyrus精灵的看着我。很乖,或许懵懵懂懂的了解妈妈在生病。真的还小啊。儿子跟女儿。。你说。

我无声。但默默的在心里祈祷。不要担心啦。。你很乐观的说。真的看得出来你很坚强,或许只是隐藏, 但看得出开你已接受。

那天的我们 还是聊了很久。 我要上机时,你对我说你很开心,下次见面再聊吧。

今天,我的生活还在继续。你却走了。 我希望世界可以停下脚步,时间可以停止下来, 为你走的这一天。

或许对其他人,今天也只是其中的一天,但我真的停住了。哭了好几遍,心还是平伏不来。

不要以为你孤单,也不要担心没有人会为你难过,我真的希望。从今天起,你一路好走。不要再牵挂,不要在痛苦,

真的很想你。



Friday, November 18, 2011

发钱荒

那天他突然对我说不知道为什么,不管你起薪还是没有 薪水还是永远不够用。对哦,我也有同感也。最近大家都在计划明年到哪里旅游,毕竟很久都没有一帮人一起去旅行,听到时心真的超痒的。旅行哦,还是牛西兰也,不心动吗?可是明年确定的旅行计划里已摆放台湾还有日本,还有结婚呢?我真的希望我老爸是印钞票的,我想我老爸应该也希望他自己是印钞票的。:P 呵呵。
想了想,还是忍痛割爱了,银行的账本书上的数字加到都没有减来得快,所以那天阿猫通知我们公司股票破了25点,我才紧张的找出了遗忘已久的密码决定卖出股票,飞哥说的对,留来干嘛,看到却摸不到的数字不叫做钱, 对哦!雯妹也说的对,卖了就有可以看到钱啦!我真的发钱疯了。。。好不容易进到ubs时,股市已关闭。可是明天开时要卖多少呢?现在是25.3, 还是放27, 28吧,高老文跳出来说放这样高,小心卖不出,好咯,那就26吧, 突然阿芳又杀出来, 这样高,小心卖不出!。。>.< 好吧好吧,那就25.7吧。某某又不懂从那里飘出来,还是太高!! 天啊!!! 那就25.5吧!!

还好,还好。。。应该有hit到25.5, 所以还是卖出了。然后昨天看, 哇赛!又跌了个4++点, 下到24++点 , 然后今天有起了个0.71+.哇!受不了!还好还好。。。 不是放到这样贪心,不然数字还是数字。 :)

Friday, November 11, 2011

你和我

麻木, 我不能控制但却一点一点地注入我。曾经我们有的是很多人盼都盼不到的感情。好朋友,好姐妹, BFF, 好过,争执过,冷淡过,摊牌过,和好过。。但当同一个节奏在反反复复的重播过,说真的。。 我是真的吃不消了. 昨夜我告诉他, 不知道为什么这次我一点失望也没有, 没有失望,没有再问自己为什么, 就什么也没有.我放倒觉得一身轻松.

似乎我们已经成为了过去,你和我,好朋友,好姐妹,好知己,已经不再套在我们两身上.

我曾问我自己,及时才会麻木? 这次我真的可以看得到。自己过去真地为了这份友情执著过. 都过了.

你 和 我..

或许有天我们的朋友也会曾经忘了这两个人曾经, 真的曾经很好过.

我不能说是你的错.真的.从一开始到现在,只要你要求的一件事情,做得到的不用说,我做.做不到的事情,我也为你做.我没想过有任何一件事情, 为你,我会觉得不甘心.你要求的事情对我来说都是天经地义. 可是,就是因为这样,我希望对于我, 可以做的事情你可不可以尽量为我做一做?可以吗?但在你的字典里, 只要你觉得麻烦, 你就堵给我一大堆的借口,太多次了,我们也坦白得太多次了,我失望了又再希望,好吧..现在我也真的不觉得难过.

或许现在,我们才是处于最自在,最自然的安全界里.

至少我是.

所以,不要再像从前... 当你有空回想我们时,再问我"为什么"..重复太多次的一出戏,我真的看累了.

这次,我真的喜欢这个麻木。