Maid of honor

I was sitting in my cube today with a myriad of pensive thoughts scurring through my head, back and forth. Most of the time, it was the same old picture of my friend's smiley face. I am still emersed in the melancholy mood, but not as intense as yesterday. I am still feeling unsettled today, but i was able to shun her image running into my head. the old memory, the bike, the ride on the swing at the park in front of her old house, the midnight virgil that we attended sometimes .

Tonight I dont want to walk down that memory lane anymore.please.

no matter how, I need to pull myself out from this shit that i felt.

so lets talk about something nice. Perhaps a succinct recap of my experience being the maid of honor last friday.

It was my forth time being a maid of honor.and I believe this will be my last time too, until I had myown wedding and literally let go the right of being one. They always say a girl can only have 3 chances to be a maid of honor but I am not superstitious.

my friend had her wedding at Hard Rock hotel and she was in hyperventilation state for the whole week prior to her wedding. It was more like racing with time than enjoying the whole process, maybe that is how every bride feels, all keyed up and tensed the whole time until the wedding is over. Anyway, as her maid of honor, I was in a bundle of nerves also! Sofia is a perfectionist and I wouldnt want to let her down if something runs off the rails. So to make sure I didnt screw her perfect plan, me and fen went to HR at 330pm, met with her wedding planner, settled our makeup and went to the hall made sure all the CD format she prepared was supported by the hotel cd player. And apparently things didnt work so well in the beginning but luckily it was all dandy after the hassles.

Despite the jittery throughout her wedding, i was actually feeling a great sense of achievement and honor to be somebody's maid of honor. It must be some kind of trust for you that they wanted you to be the one who could walk with them on their big days, I hope my bride's maid and maid of honor feel this too on my big days:P and this will be my little prayer tonight.

I googled the maid of honor's checklist the day before and the google even showed me "Bridesmaid's 101", i wonder if they have something like " Bridesmaid's guide for dummy" or anything that sounds more dummy. I didnt go through the whole list because i believe the

checklist with 100++ items are actually prep you to become a professional bridesmaid or super

bridesmaid==.

for me, being a bridesmaid is about....

1. Being photogenic. EHEM! Taking picture in the hotel with great view, especially HR hotel that you dont normally come and stay a night for vacation. And dont forget to use the bathroom too!!!

2. Being observant! Spot anything that is nice and special, and of coz take a picture with them again.wtf.

3. Participating. Join in any process! see...I was "supervising" the baloon maker...verrrryyy responsible!==

4. Being supportive! Maid of honor is the bride's best supporter and you have to follow whereever she goes! For example, the bride's busy fixing her laptop and the bridesmaid has to give her full support!!

Aiya, I really made a good maid of honor!!!Good night!